A deep despair like I’d never known before dropped me to my knees. For years I had begged and pleaded to be allowed to interact with humans, to ease their suffering and take away their pain. Yet when my wish was finally granted I didn’t believe I was making a difference and as the years slowly eased on it became harder and harder not to lose a piece of myself with every passing. I wanted to make a difference, I intended to comfort but losing this last soul was too much for me to bear. His death was destroying me.